As the title (so vaguely) says, I am thinking about cutting out my relaxer.

Initially when starting on my hair journey, I wanted to grow my relaxed hair as long, healthy, and thick as possible. 

Yep. That's the look I was going for. But longer. And healthier. And thicker. Somewhere along the way, I decided to not relax my hair anymore. I didn't want to use the word "transition" or the phrase "going natural" because I wasn't sure that I was actually doing either. Could have just been an extremely long stretch between relaxers. I was undecided at the time. But one thing I knew for sure, I WAS NOT CUTTING MY HAIR. I was content with having two textures, relaxed and natural, in my head as long as I possibly could.

Why? When I was younger, my hair was always about mid length (shoulder length to shoulder blades). Then I went through years of improper hair care and breakage, so when I finally started to obtain and retain a little length, I wanted to hold on to it.

About a few months ago though, I decided that I indeed wanted to have all natural hair. Which meant, I would have to cut off the relaxed ends. It started to make sense. I began to fall in love with my natural hair as I saw it grow in. Also, it started to become increasingly tedious to detangle both textures and this led to breakage. I noticed that my natural hair was just boss. You know that Garnier Fructis commercial where the girl is able to pull part of a countertop with her hair? Yep. That's how my natural hair felt. Whereas my relaxed hair seemed to be a little more brittle. A little more fragile. A little more susceptible to breakage. And breakage is a direct opponent to what I'm trying to accomplish here, no?

So, here is where I am now.

With a bit of relaxer left on the ends. If I "Cut it Out" I'll end up with something around chin length. Since I am in southern Georgia; southern hot humid Georgia, during the blazing hot summer and wearing my natural hair straight is practically a joke, I'm trying to convince myself that by the time I can actually wear my hair straight (during the colder months), the length will be there once again. Trying to convince myself...

I have the day off. Nothing planned. Am I going to cut it?? Hm.. prolly so. I dunno. In a little while, maybe. If I don't chicken out. Just hope I don't hate it. I mean, short(er) hair was never the goal, ya know. Never.


Let me know what you think! But please be nice. Being negative is just no fun. K?